I didn’t get to count your fingers and toes
Or lay a kiss on your cute little nose
I didn’t get to hold you oh so close
And still your the one I miss the most
I didn’t get to softly stroke your cheek
Or watch you attentively while you sleep
I never got to tell you how much I care
The chance to know you just wasn’t there
I never got to sit with you on my knee
Or feel the joy you could bring to me
I didn’t get to hold your tiny hand
Why you were taken I don’t understand
I didn’t get to say how much I love you
But I promise you my angel it is true
You’ll be in my heart all my life through
My angel I will always remember you
~Clair L. Ellerton-Knowles
I found this poem and thought it fit how I felt exactly. I will never get to hold my baby in my arms, but I do know I will see you again little peanut. Mommy loves you.
For those of you that are worried and would like to know, I am feeling much better today. I still feel sad from time to time and will always remember that I was pregnant just a short 4 days ago, but I am confident that God will bless Matt and I with another beautiful child. He just needed to call this one home a bit sooner than I wanted. All is in his plans though, I just need to remember and trust in that.
I also wanted to thank the family and friends that have been so caring and understanding through this time. All the thoughts, prayers and encouraging words were a true blessing for us and I wouldn’t have been able to get through it without you all. Thank you.
We love you all.