Rohnan’s birth was such a whirl wind and adventure. From start to finish this little man has made us work for it but I wouldn’t change his story for the world. I learned so much about my intuition and gut from his pregnancy and birth!
Many of you know that I’m a home birther. I love home birth and advocate for it whenever I can. Rohnan’s big sister was an HBAC (home birth after cesarean) and it was the most healing and amazing experience of my life. Her birth helped me move past her older sister’s traumatic birth and discover my passion for birth advocacy. So when we finally got pregnant with our rainbow baby and I knew the little one was going to make it I started calling home birth midwives in Utah so that I wouldn’t have to worry about that step when we got here. Found an amazing and super experienced midwife and sighed a sigh of relief. I was set!
We got to Utah and I decided to also set up an appointment with a CNM (Certified Nurse Midwife) at the local hospital that I had heard great things about. I had been told she would do concurrent care for home birth mamas and she was totally covered by our insurance. Bonus! haha She told me she wasn’t allowed to catch VBAC babies but would be my back up midwife through my pregnancy and would be there if I needed her. She wrote all my prescriptions for me and that was such a blessing. Since I had GD again I was having to pay for my test strips and stuff, not any longer!
His pregnancy was relatively uneventful until the end when the CNM heard an heart arrhythmia during a routine check up. That was a stressful few weeks until the specialists determined that it was nothing to worry about and I was given the clear to deliver how ever I wanted. I had the feeling he wasn’t going to be as easy as I thought from then on. My gut told me we would be giving birth in the hospital but I went about it just like we were not.
Jump forward to 37 weeks. I had already been having prodomal labor for a solid week. NO FUN! My midwives both thought I may not make it till 40 weeks, but of course, Rohnan had a different idea about how things were going to go and I went all the way to 40 weeks and 3 days before the prodomal labor turned into early labor at 4 in the morning. My mom was here so when she woke up and I was already up, she knew. Today was the day.
I tried to go about the day like nothing was going on. My midwife showed up in the afternoon with my birth pool and all her supplies. Checked me and saw that I was already a 6-7. HOLY MOLY! Bulging bags too. She believed it was going to be soon so we started setting up my pool and filling it. By the time it was full I was beyond ready to get in. The contractions were close together and intense but it wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle. I remember thinking how this was going way to easy.
My midwife asked if I wanted to be checked again to see where I was and I agreed. I was almost complete and she thought if she broke my water I would have baby in an hour so I said go for it. Apparently, my bags were SUPER thick because she could barely get it to pop and then his head stopped the flow. My contractions then became what I remembered from River’s birth and things really got intense.
This is when my body decided that it wasn’t going to cooperate. Rohnan pulled back up instead of down and I closed back up to a 7. The next few hours were a blur of pain as we worked to get him to come back down. I went back and forth from a 7 to complete multiple times and the whole time I was in the midst of transition contractions. All you mama’s know exactly what I’m talking about, nonstop and painful. At one point my midwife was trying to get him to come down by holding me open and I was pushing but he would just keep coming down and going back up. I was so done. Got back in the pool to relax for a moment and had enough clarity hit me that I was able to really think. I told everyone I was done and he wasn’t coming out. I needed an epidural to get on top of these contractions. Chris (my mw) agreed we had done everything we could here at home to get him to come and that there was no shame in going in for some back up. We then got me dressed and I went to the hospital. Chris assured all of us that Rohnan was just fine, it was just me that needed a break. That was a relief to know that even though I was a mess, he was just fine.
Got to the hospital and got my epidural. RELIEF! The nurses were amazing and the OB on duty was beyond supportive of me and I never felt like they were talking down to me or talking behind my back about “the home birth transfer”. That was just what I needed. Chris was there and so was Matt and the OB told me that we weren’t giving up yet and that I was be getting my second VBAC. Told me to rest and that they were going to turn on the smallest level of pit to get Rohnan to engage again. That did the trick! He finally started to engage again and I started to dilate.
I was so thankful my midwife had come with me. She was my rock as I laid there waiting for my body to get moving. She listened to his heart rate with me, told me he was sounding amazing, held my hand as they checked me, etc. She made me feel safe. She was a real God send. Matt even got to nap in peace because he knew she was there watching out for me. Finally it was time to push. The nurses got the ball moving without the OB there and got me to crown before they even called him in. LOL
Rohnan decided to get stuck right then though and it was a group effort to get him out. Thank goodness I was numb because otherwise it would had been really, really painful. And he was here! 22 hours of labor, 8 lbs 9 oz, 22 inches long and perfection. I got everything I wanted and the OB was so beyond kind.
So my second HBAC turned VBAC but I am so at peace with it all. We know without a doubt that we needed to be in the hospital this time. I needed that pain relief and the many drugs for hemorrhage (started to bleed an hour later and it took at lot to get it to stop) and he needed the nudge to be born.
Come to find out that the OB that came to our birth was the same OB that refers women to Chris when they want to home birth so he was just who I needed that night. God works in mysterious ways.
I can’t thank enough everyone who was there for me during our adventure. God, My amazing midwife, the CNM who got me through the really difficult parts of my pregnancy, the nurses who were so supportive and nonjudgmental, the OB who said I was getting my second VBAC that night, my mom who watched my kids and held me when I realized I needed to transfer, Andrea who took AMAZING photos of my labor and of my beautiful children, and finally, but most importantly, my warrior of a husband who was with me through it all. I couldn’t have done it without each and every one of you. Rohnan is here and showing us just how different each child can be.